I haven’t updated all week.
And I’m not happy. This is about to be a rant, so if you don’t care and don’t want to read, then simply keep scrolling.
I’m having a terrible day. I thought it was going to be great too, and now everything has hit the ground. Woke up, was in a good mood. I went to the gym and did an hour of cardio and worked out my abs. Then I get notice that Ryan isn’t going to be coming when he said he was. I’m already in somewhat of a bad mood because my truck is acting up…again. The interior lights won’t shut off and my engine light will sometimes blink. So then I find out that Ryan decided to go skiing at 1 this afternoon (after it’s been raining all day), and definitely won’t be here at 3. It wouldn’t be such a big deal if I saw him more often. But I see him once a week. And usually not even for a full day. I’m over it. I need to see him more, it’s not even an option anymore. So whatever, he’s not coming tonight and I’m stuck at home because I can’t go anywhere in my truck. My one best friend is at school, the other is at work. I pretty much hate everyone else.
So my mom starts yelling at me because I wouldn’t do the dishes. Well I’m finally putting my foot down because my brothers don’t do A THING. But it’s fine that they don’t do anything. Always my fault. So one thing ALWAYS turns into another. I’m suddenly ungrateful, and always ask for shit (mind you, I’ve just told her when I got home that my truck is acting funny). And that if my truck needs work, she’s not paying for it so I’ll have to find a new car. Because I really have money for that right now. OH LET ME JUST PAY ALMOST $1,000 A MONTH IN STUDENT LOANS AND ADD A CAR PAYMENT TO THAT LIST WORKING AT FUCKING TOYS R US. I’m so done. Money is just always a fucking issue. And god forbid I curse because my brothers have the cleanest mouths possible at the ages of 15 and 13. I’m 23 years old, shut the fuck up.
I’m over everything today. It’s almost 5pm and after I clean my room I’ll probably go to bed. My phone is off and who knows when I’ll turn it back on.
